I said no!

I am in awe of myself, I just said “no” when a co-worker (whom always pushes his work off on me,) asked me “Do you have time for blah, blah, blah?” *Pats herself on the back* I’m always afraid of hurting people, or stepping on toes so I always say yes, no matter how busy or overwhelmed I am. This felt so hard to say, but omg is is so great! He said “ok, then I will.” ….. just like that!! No muss, no fuss!! I need to try this more often.

Namaste!

Sucess!!!

Well I’m happy to say that my neice had her birthday party on Saturday and she LOVED the gifts I’d made for her. I had been soooooo over worried that she wouldn’t like them as much as the other things I knew other people would be “buying” her. But her face lit up when she pulled her little bunny

Little Bunny Friend

Little Bunny Friend

out of the little tote bag
Little Girl Tote Bag

Little Girl Tote Bag

. It was really sweet. She also loved her poncho that I made for her, she put it on over her Belle dress she was wearing.
Little Girl's Poncho

Little Girl's Poncho

It definately made all the work on them worth while.

So now I’m on to other projects. Its my own daughter’s birthday coming up in October. So I’ve got a few ideas in the works for her. My only issue there is finding the time to make them when she isn’t looking. πŸ˜‰ I’ve also have the desire to really work on some doilies, even though I know they are a bit outdated they are so beautiful. I am also trying out what’s called Filet Crochet. Basically its like graph paper with squares filled in to make the picture, but with the crochet your filling in the squares with the crochet stitches AND making the grid squares with the stitches. It really sounds harder than it is. I’ve already done 12 rows on a beginning project and I’ve impressed myself that it is actually working and so easy.

So that’s what’s up in my little world. Really only a portion of it even. With the kids back in school and activities starting up, I hope that my new found up swing, strength, and hope, will keep up and keep forward.

so for now,
Namaste,

Still hooking… (excuse the pun!!)

Lil Turtle Friend

Lil Turtle Friend

Made a couple more things with crochet this past weekend/week. First off was a lil bitty turtle for my boyfriend’s son. He loves turtles, and well I’m really trying to ease his transition to living with us and I thought this might help as a welcoming gesture.

I also threw together somthing for my DD. She went to a Girl Scout camp for the weekend and on friday before she left I realized I hadn’t made her that water-bottle holder that I’d so wanted to do. So, needless to say, I found a really quick pattern here: Ravelry done by JoAnne Leonard aka: HappyHooking I really love the way mine turned out. I did have to alter it a bit from her pattern, but that was because I had to use what I had on hand here at the office, which was a smaller hook, but it turned out lovely I think, and my DD just loved it!

Quick & Easy Water Bottle Sling

Quick & Easy Water Bottle Sling

Anyway, I’ve really been frustrated with the gifts I’ve been working on for my neice’s birthday this comming weekend. I’ve gotten a really sweet poncho finished up for her as well as a cute hat, and a sweet lil amigurumi bunny, but I’ve been hitting a wall when it comes to a purse/tote/bag to make for her. I think I’ve frogged 4 projects already. They just don’t seem to want to come together, or to look as cute as the pattern originals. *sigh* Hopefully the one I started last night will come through and turn out. I’ll post some photos after she’s received them. Don’t want to spoil the surprise. πŸ™‚

for now,
Namaste,

Is this what “normal” is???

Is this? I sit in amazement every day now. I don’t feel an unending urge to just cry, to just curl up and hide and wish it all away anymore. I have to admit, I cannot remember the last time I ever felt this “okay”. You would have thought that being a mother twice over, moving and living in such lovely and interesting places over the years that a person would have absolutely no reason at all to feel the way I’ve felt the last 13 years. And the clouds aren’t so dark anymore, its amazing to me. I still have quite a few dauting issues to work through, but I can see now, that I am not the only one. Everyone deals with these things. Debt, children fighting, their own children growing, daily house chores, daily job chores. I am not alone, and I need to hang onto that because when I was drowning, all I ever felt was alone, even with my loving family and friends. Its so hard to explain to anyone who’s not gone through it.

I am enjoying life again, and I just keep feeling the urge to shout it out and share it.
Thank you for sharing it with me. πŸ™‚
Namaste,

I think its helping…

Just had a good day today, and boy is that been somthing I’ve not been able to say for so long. I had to sit down and think about it, and you know, today had all the little things in it that normally set me off on down the endless pit of depsair, but they didn’t do it today. Even when I was on the Celexia I still had quite a few of those days. But I think this switch to the Lexapro has actually worked. I’m amazed at how I’m feeling lately. Its been 2 months since we switched me and, I’m pretty sure that’s how long it takes to kick in, so there really isn’t much doubt in my mind.

I wanted to share a site with you all also. I’ve found it to be the best thing since facebook, where crafting is concerned anyway. It’s Ravelry Its a site kinda like facebook but for Knitters & Crocheters and other fiber arts. They have forums, groups, patterns, even a lovely database where you can keep track & share what your working on. I LOVE it! Definately a must visit if your into any of those crafts.

Anyhoo, I must finish up here at the office so I can head home soon. Just had a burst of need to share.

Namaste,

Finished projects…

Amigurumi Monkey

Amigurumi Monkey

Amazingly enough I have actually finished a couple of projects! This one is an Amigurumi Monkey I made for my son. I followed the pattern from the book Easy Crochet Critters. It was pretty fun to make. I think I’m hooked on making these lil animals, and well hooked on crocheting in general if you’ll excuse the pun. πŸ˜‰
Pretty Flower Necklace

Pretty Flower Necklace

The other thing I finished was a flower necklace crocheted with thread instead of yarn. I used the pattern Pretty Pretty Flower Scarf designed by gnathalie2 and posted on her blog Gnat on the Windshield It is a lovely design. I decided to use a size #3 crochet thread in navy blue, and kept it shorter to make it a neckalace. Being my first crochet jewlery, I think it turned out alright, but as usual I see room for improvement.

So now that I got those couple little projects out of my system, I can continue working on the things I’m making for my neice’s birthday. She’ll be turning 5 the beginning of August, so I’m making some really “girly” things for her. I’ll post those as I finish them up.

Namaste

New things!!!

Well, its been quite busy around my place lately. I have been working hard trying to do an online class taught by Christi Friesen through Doll Street Dreamers So far all I have done is my wings and my head/face is only 1/2 way done. Here are the wings:

Work in Progress - Green Goddess Wings

Work in Progress - Green Goddess Wings

Hopefully I can motivate myself to finish up her head real soon. Her body & clothing should be pretty simple after that.

I’ve also re-discovered another craft that I used to do when I was my daughter’s age. Crocheting. The thing is now, I’m not just doing the simple pot-holder square, or scarf, I’m actually trying the stuff I never imagined I could do. Hats, doilies, amigurumi, and I’m even going to try my hand at filet crochet. I’m really enjoying myself, and my daughter is even joining in and trying her hand at the hats & amigurumi. I’m about 98% completed on my very first doily, and I’ll post a photo of that once I get it blocked out and pretty. Here are the first hats I’ve ever done in the meantime:

Cloche Hat

Cloche Hat

My Daughter Wearing the Cloche hat.

My Daughter Wearing the Cloche hat.

Child's Light Cap

Light Cap.

I made the cloche hat, as well as the white hat following the instructions here: The Art of Crochet At this site she has TONS and TONS of helpful videos and projects. She’s really helped me get started, and get interested to keep going.

Other than that life is still rolling on. The kids start school next Monday. Even though they won’t admit it, I know they are happy for the shorter summer. They just get to bored sitting at home playing video games all day. πŸ˜‰

Anyway, that’s all I have time for today, hopefully I’ll have somemore to share very soon!

Namaste

Light on the horizon…

Jaymie's New Truck

Jaymie's New Truck

Just had a bit of happy news & happenings. I am quite excited that I finally got a new (used but new to me) truck!! A ’93 Toyota 4 runner. I am so so so happy and it is quite beautirific!!! It has all the bells and whistles, and on top of everything it is an automatic and still has 4-wheel drive! It drives so nice, not like a truck at all. I can say how happy I am. The old camry was truly on its last legs, now I have no worries about my vechicle starting or dying.

Whoo hoos!
Namaste,

Sadness is overwhelming…

My Grandmother

My Grandmother

I had a very sad weekend past. Last Thursday my mother and I found out that her mom, my grandma had passed away in the night. This was the only grandmother I had known, even though she had lived a state away. I spent the majority of my summers at her home, with her. She was a very beautiful, inspirational, artistic, musical, and lovely lady. I cannot say in words enough to express my love for her. She will be deeply missed and always remembered.

I am still a little raw from the whole experiance. Hopefully I can sit down sometime soon and actually write somthing fitting for a rememberance of her and her life. For now this will have to do.

With love and hope for all,
Namaste

Missing in Action…

So sorry to have not been around for a while. I’m not sure I even have readers to apologize to. *SIGH* Oh well. I’ve been busy being depressed, being up and being down, trying to get my diabetes back under control. Lemme tell you all, I absolutely HATE with the UTTMOST passion HATE having to evaluate and analyze every dang thing that I put into my mouth to eat. I feel like food is controling my enitre day, my entire life and that I cannot live because of it, yet this is what I must do to be able to live. Its a bit ironic and so very depressing.

My clay time has been nearly non-existant, sadly. I have quietly slid away from all my email groups and not been participating like I would like. Partly due to not having any time what-so-ever, and partly due to lack of skill. I see everyone elses lovely creations and omg I am just fooling myself to think I could ever create like they do. I’ve posted a new link to a lady I so admire: Annabel Arico. She has the most stunning and free creations. *BRAVO* Pop on over there and get an eye-full. I promise you won’t be disappointed.

Anyway, back to work for me. I’d much rather be home trying to create, or hell even just home sleeping. I honestly don’t feel I’m at the right place at any time of day anymore. Here’s hoping to things going back up, it certainly can’t go down any further. *sigh*

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